Something wrong.

 I don't know what this is.

I have a mixed feelings about my romantic interest.

I am confusing. I feel doubt of myself.

I am not sure what is this.

I really want to fix it as soon as possible, but I can't. I have to wait.

I have to be patient to understand everything, to open up layer by layers.

Sometimes God's plan is not visible if we are in a hurry.

I face something that seems like I have to give up about my dreams and just try the best for whichever life's providing me. But in the other hand, it seems like what I want is in front of me and need me to be honest and fight for that, because it looks really difficult and almost impossible. But I know that this is what I want and what I am dreaming for. 

It looks like something wrong with me.

It feels like something, I am too afraid to be honest about my feelings.

Only God knows. I really want to surrender, but sometimes I do not believe, and I just force God to do what I like, and I am being too greedy. I should not do that. 

Hmmm,

O God, can you please show me the right way, and the right choice?

I am afraid,

I am not confident, and I don't know what the best decision for my life is.

I am curious about my future. I know it depends on the decisions I make today.

I don't want to feel regret.

But I think, this time I will let God to discover everything to me.

I will surrender,

I will try to be patient until God show me the right way.