Something wrong.
I don't know what this is. I have a mixed feelings about my romantic interest. I am confusing. I feel doubt of myself. I am not sure what is this. I really want to fix it as soon as possible, but I can't. I have to wait. I have to be patient to understand everything, to open up layer by layers. Sometimes God's plan is not visible if we are in a hurry. I face something that seems like I have to give up about my dreams and just try the best for whichever life's providing me. But in the other hand, it seems like what I want is in front of me and need me to be honest and fight for that, because it looks really difficult and almost impossible. But I know that this is what I want and what I am dreaming for. It looks like something wrong with me. It feels like something, I am too afraid to be honest about my feelings. Only God knows. I really want to surrender, but sometimes I do not believe, and I just force God to do what I like, and I am being too greedy. I should not do ...